A Pleasant Suffering The Story Of A Broken Heart

When we open our awareness to the doorway to our soul and our heart, we will be able to go to the core of our experiences with light and dark. Our heart is the first thing we think about when someone mentions love. We are all familiar with this pattern of thought. The heart we are bringing our awareness to is not our physical heart, which is the alpha and omega of our physical bodies, but rather our spiritual heart that is the keeper of all of our experiences in manifested and un-manifested creation.

The spiritual heart represents universal love, through the action of giving. This ultimate giving is what is called life. Life is called the first love because life is a system of different energies that are working together to produce more and more energy. Think about it, you are here because your mother and father (two different beings of energy) came together, mixed their energies and produced the energetic being called you. So how does this energy called love tie in with suffering? And how can it be pleasant?

First let’s look at what suffering is. Suffering has many interpretations delete. We will use the common meaning of to feel pain or distress, sustain loss, injury, harm or punishment. In life there are really two ways to experience suffering, internally or externally. The external suffering is usually the thoughts, words or actions from others that have an adverse affect on our lives. That is why it is such a negative thing to abuse a child. Most of the sufferings we carry around are the results of some type of abuse coming from our childhood or from our past. When I use the word abuse I mean physical, emotional, mental or spiritual.

This abuse expresses itself in the form of constriction and fear. This is seen in children when they have suffered abuse. By not allowing the child to express themselves and made to feel negative about any part of themselves, they will carry this view of themselves around with them for the rest of their life. What has happened here is the abuser projected their suffering onto the abused, eventually manifesting their own suffering. The sins of the father are bestowed upon the son. Now you have the child receiving this constricting energy called suffering and they proceed to internalize it. This energy can become a habit or way of self expression that holds the person back from who they were meant to be.

You want to be a happy person and you are most of the time, but you deal with a nagging part of your personality you don’t like. This aspect of yourself can be viewed from a place of fear and heartbreak or from a place of oneness and love. The place of fear and despair is how that suffering energy expresses itself in your life with feelings of low self worth, or by you creating destructive situations in your life. The suffering that came from the external became internalized and then given back to the external world through your thoughts, words and actions. This can be seen as tragic and bad, as our world can be a terrible place. What the butterfly sees as infinite possibilities of flight, the caterpillar sees as the end of the world.